its just a vent
my honesty is somewhat flawed. i dont define the great people of this country and i sure as hell dont accommodate to your likes or needs. i am somewhat of a slacker and a hard ass at heart, but this does not mean that i dont have a heart, or feelings. it has come a apparent to me that i have fallen out of the chain of reality due to one person, and it was sickening and disgusting to believe that i could possibly let anyone try to take advantage of me in that way. but i get it all the time. i get it every single day and i dont seem to care or do anything about it. but lets face it, we all want that form of love or sex or whatever you want to call it. its not a lust full thing. its not a incredible love thing. its just the ability to look at someone and say wow. i truly believed that i could find something like that out of someone that couldnt even find the right side of them because there was more then two. so i look back and question. was it a mistake? was it a regret? no no no i do not belive that these were either mistakes or do i regret i because as much as i hate it now, i still loved it when it had breath and life in it. and no i am not depressed and in super need of hugs because the door is closed and the chapter is written. simple as it may sounds i am quite content with how everything is going at the moment. even if my world was kinda teetering around i have finally come to the conclusion that you will probably never get to see the best of me because you insist on seeing the beautiful flaws because i know you think they are beautiful because you like to look at them more then my bests. its just a vent believe me
